NaNdEvIL

Friday, December 21, 2007

*My Buddy*

When i was first enlisted, i remember i was so unsettled wif the admin stuff. Until late at night, i finally got a permanent place and got to know my buddy. Raymond Koh. Small and cute little fellow. Took some time b4 we became close wif one another. And there was no looking back. Who wld have known he juz lived one road away from me. And he knew a few of my frens who studied in his sch.

Still remember he was the garang type while i was the slacker. He wanted to get to the highest place of them all. While i juz cldnt be bothered. Different as we may be, but we sure were a great tag team. The only prob he had, he was a zero fighter. But he didn't take tt as an obstacle and fought all the way. At the end, he had 7 to his name. I was put to shame by his attitude, but i was still proud of him.

At the start, we were afraid to go to the toilet alone at nite. And we wld wake each other up in the middle of the nite. We later realised tt we were the onli ones who did tt. The rest juz went on their own. We laughed at our antics, but we juz carried on.

There was this time when i slept with him in the tent. It was raining very heavily. And i heard some noises. I thought it was a wild boar attack. But it was actually juz the baby wild boar sleeping beside me. At one look, pple wld think tt i wld be the one who wld have to carry him thru the rough times. But the fact was, it was because of him tt i kept goin. I cld have given up if i wanted to midway. I had my reasons. But every nite when i look beside my bed, i wld look at him and tell myself, one more day.

2 days b4 the end, we had a hell of a party. But w/o me knowing, i was the victim of a blanket party and got the worst treatment of all. I was quite pissed. When i was washin up, he came in to check on me. I told him to go away. He siad he wanted to see if i was alrite. I scolded him harshly. He walked away. We made up the day after of coz, but how wld i have known tt incident wld have turned out to be my biggest regret.

When we got our posting, i was happy for him. But he was sad for me. I didn't really care bout myself. Coz i knew the difference in the efforts we made. He later signed on wif what he wanted. And i glad he did, coz tt was what he wanted all along.

It has been quite sum time since i last saw him. Last time was Oct 13. After the movie, we went to have supper at Newton and cabbed back home. I remember him tellin the driver not to slp, and he was drving very dangerously. We all held our lives in our hands and got home.

And now, he's gone. Who wld have thought the Woodlands Khakis wld have been reduced to 3 pple? This bubbly little fella whose smile could light up anyone's hearts had to leave. He is the only buddy that i had. Even where i'm nw, i dun have any. I'm a one man show. My one and only buddy has left me.

18th Dec. I'll neva 4get the date. I didn't even know he was admitted in the hospital. I was his buddy, but i was one of the last to know of his departure. Hw was i supposed to react? It hit me hard, real hard. I remember i was shivering when i heard the news. My fren cldnt even hold me down.

I saw him lying in the box. It wasn't him. Didn't look like him at all. But the fact remains. I cldnt bear to look at his sisters. They resembled him exactly. They looked strong. But i know how close they were to their brother. And i cldnt even cry. I held it. I wanted him to go in peace.

I thought of so many things, but i juz can't pen them down here. Its takin a toll on me. I can't even think straight. It might have onli been 9 weeks. But it was 9 weeks of hell. And we went thru it together. I could change my clothes, my friends, my gf or whateva, but i can neva change my buddy.

You were not onli juz my buddy, but u were way more than that. And everyone knows that. Rest in Peace Bro.

Promise me one thing Bro.. Look over ur family. Your mum needs you.. And ur 2 younger sisters have a long way ahead.. Guide them on..

the devil spoke at 9:38 PM.

My Life

You promised me heaven but you put me through hell.

:+: Keep it flamin' pple :+:

[[*Music Playing*]]
Artist: Tokio Hotel
Song: Monsoon

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold
It's making me insane

I've been waiting here so long
Another the moment seems to've come,
I see the dark clouds coming up again.

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you

A half moon's fading from my sight
I see your vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name, I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey! Hey!

I'm fighting all this power
Coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you