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Sunday, November 05, 2006

*ComeBack*

Yeap, 2 weeks ago was the last time i stepped in here. How time flies rite. Anyways, as usual. Too busy, tired and lazy to update. Life has been pretty monotonous for me. Nothing interesting worth mentioning. Other than the normal shits that happen.

Been very busy these past few weeks that i hardly even have time for myself. 24 hours a day not enuff? Yea, i think so too. Life rotates around work and training. Rush off to training after work and then go back home and prepare for the next day and sleep late and wake up early the next morning. Even if there's no training, there is always something else for me to take care of, domestic matters that is. Atleast, trainings divert my attention away from the hectic life i have. Juz as i thought to myself that i can withstand all these pressure and stress, i met my 'best friend'. His name is "The Flu". Got it on Thurs. Didn't want history to repeat, so i went to see the doc on Fri. This is not the period i wld want to fall sick. For people who don't know what i meant by history, a little flashback for ya.

In Aug this yr, i got the flu. Being the stubborn me, i didnt see the doc. Things got worse and my ear got blocked. Got referred to TTSH. Spent few hundred dollars on medical bills. So yea. A lesson well learnt. When i got to the clinic, once i saw the queue, i got headache also. No place in the clinic for me to wait, so i waited outside. Luckily Karthik came down to accompany me.

Disappointment, fed up, anger, tired, stressed... These are pretty much the words to describe how i have been so far. Be it at work, home, school or wherever. My smiles and silence pretty much hide them all. No point showing them out when it only brings down others and doesn't help myself. Everything i do seem to go wrong one way or another. Its alrite if i let myself down, but i let the pple around me down too. Thats the most fucked up part. Morale at an all time low. Guess i need a miracle get back to wat i used to be. Miss the old me, when life used to be so carefree. Guess as u get older, responsibilities start to tie u down. Well, whatever.

Sorry if i sound 'emotic' in this entry. I'm human afterall. Juz wanted to write it all down so that next time wen i read this, maybe it'll remind me of my past. Or maybe i'll juz laugh at how i used to live my life. Well, tts my famous quote. When pple askin me y i am smiling to myself, i'll reply them saying that i'm laughing at my life. Afterall, i can't talk to anyone bout wat i am goin thru. I know pple like to tell me that they are here for me and i can tell them my problems and that kinda stuff and all. But this is me. I don't burden others wif my shit. Everyone goes thru shit. Its juz a matter of how u clean it up.

And pol-ite competition starting on monday is not helping at all. I am like so unprepared but looking forward to it. Rubbish rite i tokin. Sori, kinda sleepy as i am typing this. Juz hopin tt i wldn't let more pple down.

And ya, my apologies to shin, kim and marcus. Promised u guys top 3 and made u all come so early in the morning on a sat, juz to disappoint u guys. Made u guys leave empty-handed. I'll make it up to u guys if i can in the future aight.

Think i have said enuff to make up for the 2 weeks absence. Not in the mood to say anything anymore. Maybe i'll come back in a few weeks or sumthing. Till then.

the devil spoke at 11:09 AM.

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