NaNdEvIL

Sunday, November 25, 2007

*A proper one*

Ok, so juz a quick one b4 i gotta rush off. So lets see where i can start from. Oh yea, i finally felt sick in 2 years. Sick, as in really really sick. Vomit, diarrhoea, stomachache and headache. All combo into one. Haizz. You must have seen how i was in camp man. Cldn't even walk properly at all. Body totally weak. And i had to book out to go NUH to settle sum stuff. Luckily Shal was free to accompany me. In case sumthin had happened to me there, she was like supposed to save me or sumthin. Haha. Thx girl.

To the biggest hoo-haa in soccer world recently. England's failure to qualify for Euro 2008. The incredible already happened when Israel beat Russia to give them a lifeline. Yet, they couldn't capitalise on that and lost to Croatia. At home summore. I wouldn't say it's cruel for them. They simply don't deserve to qualify despite being given a second chance. Same applies for life. When given a second chance, u shld reflect back, learn from ur errors and make amends. Not start offering holidays to ur club mates from other nationalities and starting ur most inexperienced goalkeeper in such an important game.

Yesterday was an eventful day. First was my division's family day at SDC. Not too bad i shld say. Then went over to sim lim to check out sum stuff. I've got a new target now. PSP slim. Seems to be the craze nowadays. Am i succumbin to peer pressure? Haha. Then to sum hotel for sum deepavali show, organised by my cousin. The show was good. And yes, the main event of the show was the stand-up comedian Kumar. Let me tell u sumthing. HE'S DAMN GOOD! He was only there for like half an hour or so. And within this period of time, i laughed more than i have laughed the whole month. Damn funny. You must be open minded to listen to him. But it was kinda weird to listen to his jokes wif my mum beside me, a few aunties and a jap gal on my table. Oh ya, the jap gal was quite cute too. Haha.

And yesterday's event led to sum family issues as well. My mum has forgiven them. I thought i'm more like my mum in my character wise. But i learnt that i'm worse than her. As in, i keep reminiscing bout the past and harp on it. For wat? Revenge? I've got no idea. But i sure made it clear that i was there juz to accompany my mum. Its damn obvious. I dun think they're so dumb as to not notice it. Well, it happened when i was young. 10 years ago. 10 years old. It had a huge effect on me. Dun blame me.

I got this msg frm my BMT sgt sum time ago. Think bout it.

"Never delay what you would want to do or say, simply because, between tomorrow's dream and yesterday's regret is today's opportunity."

the devil spoke at 12:30 PM.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

*Now what?*

Ok, so deepavali and my 20th bdae juz passed. Deepavali in my house ain't exactly the typical type tt u wld expect or see elsewhere. I do it very differently. Due to circumstances leading to my not-so-favourite phrase, 'i dun really have much of a choice'. I could onli do a limited number of things thx to the limited amount of time i had. And ya, the big 20. No more a teen. Not exactly a way someone wld wanna celebrate it. Imagine for 16 hours of ur big day, u onli see 4 different pple at most, a 1.5m to 2m iguana, a couple of monkeys and ya, a whole lot of mosquitoes. But my sincere thanks to all those who called and messaged me. Some of u guys admitted that it was frenster that reminded u guys, but its alrite. Its the thought that counts. =)

Sometimes growing up can be quite a problem, especially for pple like me. You tend to think that u r becomin smarter and start analysing all kinda stuff, even though they have got nothin to do wif u. You think bout how u can help others. But u put urself in a precarious position. And u create more heartache for urself. I gotta congrate myself on this.

One guy wif no significance to my life told me this recently, "I only plan things 1 week at a time. Atleast you would be able to do sumthing about it. If you think too much bout the long run, u onli stress urself even more, and there aint anythin u can do bout it." How true.

I used to think tt being in camp was bad and i cldnt wait to come out and enjoy my 1.5 days outside. But now, i think i rather stay in than be out. Like i said above, circumstances. It can really drive u to a corner.

Okok, too emo already this post. Lets see how this post can be brightened up. Actually, nothin much. I think this blog is becomin more like a punching bag for me. It seems to help a little. Now tts a gd sign.

And yes, if any of my flrballers happen to chance upon this place, can lemme noe where i can find the ivp fixtures. And also, when and how i can collect my t-shirt. Thks!

Sometimes i think, am i tt bloody invisible?

the devil spoke at 2:54 PM.

My Life

You promised me heaven but you put me through hell.

:+: Keep it flamin' pple :+:

[[*Music Playing*]]
Artist: Tokio Hotel
Song: Monsoon

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold
It's making me insane

I've been waiting here so long
Another the moment seems to've come,
I see the dark clouds coming up again.

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you

A half moon's fading from my sight
I see your vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name, I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey! Hey!

I'm fighting all this power
Coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you